Our Love is Like a Beautiful Sunset | {THE AND} Jasmyn & Celeste

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Jasmyn (she/her) and Celeste (she/her) know each other since middle school and were in a romantic relationship 7 years ago. They have given their love a second chance and they recently got together again. As they navigate the challenges their current connection is giving them, they also cherish and are grateful for what they have and how far they’ve become as individuals and as a couple.

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What I think you need from me

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is a little more commitment or certainty.

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That's a great word.

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You do.

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I know you do. - That’s such a good word.

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And I can't give it to you,

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and I haven't. I'm sorry.

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I know I love you.

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I've told you, Like this time around,

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I can't- I won't lose you.

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Yeah. - But I think that's something that

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you need that I'm not giving you.

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Describe what you remember

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most from the first time we met.

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And the second time we met

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after seven years.

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The first time, like.

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Okay, hold on.

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Do you want middle school? I remember... - I want every-

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Every first time. We have, like,

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so many first times.

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I don't really remember middle school.

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I just remember, you know, I don't think-

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Middle school was like...

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What do you remember from middle school?

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That you were just goofy.

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And I feel like I was a goofy kid too, but

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like you were on another level.

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Like, who is this kid? Like, girl, go away!

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I don't know.

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And then in high school,

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like,

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when we

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randomly, like, ran into each other,

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you were just so loud.

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You just were so like,

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I don't know if it gave confidence

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or like, I don't know.

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Yeah, you just never

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it just gave, like, you knew yourself.

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And obviously,

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like me in high school was very like

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searching all the time.

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And then, I mean, seven years now.

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Oh,

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it was so unexpected but like,

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so exciting

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and, and like, nerve wracking.

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And I told you,

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I called like,

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everybody on my phone when you were like,

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Sure.

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I was like: Jasmyn said yes?!

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Oh, gotta call-

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I called like,

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when I say I probably called anybody

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that would listen.

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I was like-

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And then all my friends were like:

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“Finally.”

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honestly, they were like: “Thank God”,

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because we’re sick of this.

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But then when I saw you,

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I just like my heart, you know, like,

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it just was like,

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like: ‘Ah, yes!’

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There she is. So...

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Is it my turn?

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Oh it is. - Yeah, it is yours.

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Okay. Oh no!

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What do you think has shaped me the most

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to be ready for this relationship?

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Hmm. Interesting.

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We just talked about this.

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I feel like

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your marriage

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and your divorce has shaped you the most.

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Honestly, I feel like.

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Like I told you

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that us being together seven years ago,

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you just didn't have the communication

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to, like, be with me.

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You needed to go through things

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or mature or just kind of focus on you.

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But I definitely think that your marriage

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has shaped

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you to be ready for this relationship,

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because it made you also realize

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that you shouldn’t have

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gotten married

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to the person you married.

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And I think it made you realize, like,

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this is where you want to be

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and it's made you

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you've done like... like you've been doing

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everything that you need to do

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to make this work.

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Mm hmm.

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You've changed so many things that

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have been previous issues for us

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and our communication

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now is amazing.

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So I think that you had to go through that

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and then therapy, you needed that.

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Shout-out.

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You needed therapy.

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Shout-out to therapy.

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We both did, we both did, but- - Shout-out to therapy.

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I feel like you just have

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so many more tools

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now to communicate with me.

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So many great resources to just

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be present in this relationship now.

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I completely agree.

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Yeah. - I'm glad you agree.

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You didn't have a choice.

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If you could go back and change

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anything about our relationship,

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what would it be and why?

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I'm so excited to hear this answer.

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What would it be and why?

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I wish that I had the tools to be alone,

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like during us and after us.

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Because I think that

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my history have been

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just like finding whoever

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I could fill my space with. Right?

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And then that led me to being

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in another relationship

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extremely fast

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and just not liking to be alone.

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And

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and so I think had I been able to deal

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with loneliness

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and like almost

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it's like it was like a number of things,

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like being afraid to be alone,

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feeling like unproductive,

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feeling anxious when I'm alone,

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like always trying to distract my time.

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If I had that, then

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I think I also then would have known

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the way

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that I felt about you

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and not thought like,

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Oh, I'll get over this.

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You know what I mean?

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Versus like sitting in it.

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You thought you'd get over me?

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Girl, I was hoping!

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Like:

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Here goes another year.

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But yeah, like, you know,

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like when you feel the feelings

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and you allow yourself to sit with them.

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And

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I think that it allows you

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to be present within yourself

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and see what you want

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and what you desire.

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And I wasn't doing that

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like I do that now and then

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that's how I probably ended up

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on your phone, you know,

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because I know what I want.

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So...

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How do you think- wait, how do you think...

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how do you think what happened in

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our past is limiting our future?

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I wouldn't say I'm scared,

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but I'm definitely like... not scared.

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But

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it's not mad.

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It's not frustrated.

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Going through the list.

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It's not jealous.

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I don't know what the feeling is but

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I just feel like...

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Just do it.

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I would love to marry you.

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I'd love to be with you forever.

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But I also feel like

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I tell you all the time,

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like I deserve better.

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Not- not from a person.

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Like not saying you don't give me the best.

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You absolutely do.

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Just like I deserve better since that

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I don't-

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I'm not your second wife.

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I am your love of your life.

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I am not your second wife. - Yeah.

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And that's what I would be.

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Yeah. Yeah.

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And I feel like that

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from our past is limiting our future.

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The more I think about it,

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like it's immature of me.

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Yeah. - It should.

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So you- - Grow up and get past that.

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You foresee yourself

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getting past it?

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Of course. - Oh, okay, then we're good.

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Because then I’d be ruining my own happiness.

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Nah, but for real.

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Okay, you win. - Thanks.

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What do you think

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is presently the biggest challenge

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in our relationship?

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And what is that offering us?

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Mm hmm.

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Okay, Imma do it.

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I think

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that

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your past interactions

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with other people

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have created an insecurity

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that does not...

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that I don't deserve

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that projects onto me.

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And I think that I'm aware of it.

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So, like, when you trip or like

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when I see that you're feeling a way

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about it,

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like I give the space for it

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because I know that it's not me

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and I know that I wouldn't do anything

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to, like,

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intensify those feelings.

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What is it offering us?

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I think it offers us

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the space to grow and allows

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you to experience

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a love that you can feel safe in

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and that you can feel confident knowing

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like those insecurities won't get,

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you know, brought up or acted on.

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And so I think that, yeah, it allows

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like safe, healthy, pure love for you.

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I agree.

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That's a good answer

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because I definitely feel-

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I love our love.

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It is very safe and comforting.

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Nice.

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Oh, this is good.

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Oh, good.

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I can't wait.

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I can.

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I can.

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This you’re going to be like: ‘Oh.’

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What does my love feel like?

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Isn’t that good? That's good.

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A sunset.

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A beautiful sunset.

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Your love is comforting.

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Your love is safe.

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You want a tissue? No tissue? Okay. Alright.

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You sure?

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Yeah, I’m sure.

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Okay.

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Your love feels like

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everything.

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All the good things

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you love is happy.

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It makes me feel comforted

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and safe and happy.

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That's why I say it feels like a sunset.

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I tell you our love is like a sunset.

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Yeah.

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If this were to be our

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last conversation ever,

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what would you never want me to forget?

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Not you crying.

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It would never be our last conversation.

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I’ll make sure to leave a voicemail

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or like 12 of them or something.

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But I probably would do something-

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like one for each year: ‘Hey girl!’.

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Um... - Just in case?

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Just in case.

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Like if that last one was the last one,

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you got another one.

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But

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that

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like,

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you deserve everything you want

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and that

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that doesn't have to come

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from anybody else.

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But it can

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but like, have that for yourself, too.

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But then when it comes

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from somebody else,

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accept that and I trust it

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because you deserve it.

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I would never want you to forget it

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like the love I have for you

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and that like you always have a space

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with me

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and

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that you fine.

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And don’t let anybody tell you different.

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Like, you got it.

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And just remember that.

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Thank you, babe.

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